Strength in the face of pain or grief. (OED definition)

I heard someone talk on courage a few weeks ago, an inspiration and a challenge. It is not just the ability to face a challenge or an obstacle without fear, but it also requires confidence, a conviction that what you are about to go through is not beyond what you can bear.

When I lay in that hospital bed eighteen months ago, I did not know what lay ahead, or what the lasting consequences would be for my life. But I knew that I had a choice. I could let fear take over, and sink into anxiety, panic and depression. Or, I could acknowledge what happened, and try to make the most of it. I chose the latter.

That is not to say that I did not feel afraid, or panic, or have moments of real anxiety. Those first moments when I couldn’t move, and was told I faced spinal surgery were among some of the most frightening of my life. The unexpected events in our lives can challenge our innermost being, and reveal what we value the most.

I took courage in the fact that I was not alone, surrounded by family and friends and supported by many others. And even in the middle of the night staring at the stark white hospital ceiling, I knew I was not alone. I trusted in someone far greater than myself to be in control where I could not.

The key to courage is faith.

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